I Need to Chill Out...

If I want to get paid to live, I first must live.

Listen, I’m so ready for my life to not be dictated by corporate America and the past week I’ve found myself frustrated.

Frustrated with myself for not having the energy to write and edit articles for Substack.

Frustrated with not editing and creating content for my YouTube.

Frustrated with the how it’s all going to work out.

Frustrated with feeling like I have to figure it out on my own…

Pause. ⏸️ I probably need to touch grass again.

Play. ▶️

But then I remembered, if I want to get paid to live, I first must live. It’s never going to be the perfect time, or amount of time. The imperfection and messy journey is exactly what my target audience will need. If it’s perfect, my target audience may feel it’s not attainable.

I want my life to be a love letter to Black women.

I want them to try to go after their dreams and embrace the journey.

I want them to know they’re not alone when the fear or exhaustion sets in.

I want Black women to thrive despite it all.

I want Black women to experience consistent joy.

Then I remembered, I have a whole creative project dropping soon that came solely from me living my life and not forcing it. And guess how I did it? With help! It’s in someone else’s hands at the moment being edited, so I can’t physically see it, but I’m over here stressing like I don’t have a timed project on the way. Also, I never give y’all deadlines for this reason.

Chile, let me chill out, watch some housewives and play games on my phone. I’m clearly tripping.

Until next time my friends…

I hope I inspired you to chill out. It’s gone be alright baby.

Originally posted on Substack on May 20, 2026 - https://thebrianadionne.substack.com/p/i-need-to-chill-out